I have spent my life since I was 8 trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I am 16 now, and the strongest diagnosis I have got was from a doctor who put me on the CAHMS waiting list, which if you are in the UK, is known to be very long. I have OCD and have been on the list for a year. Every now and again, I get an email or letter saying that I’m still on there, just not any further up. Recently, I was at a point where I could not leave the house due to fear of germs, which as you can imagine, was not helped by COVID. I have had suicidal thoughts, and have self harmed in the past - almost being figured out a little while ago but tried to get my way out of it. I want help, but I can’t seem to get any. I have been to counsellors, general therapists and other holistic places, but I am really trying to be put forward for CBT. I’m trying, but the system is failing. It’s likely that by the time I’m at the top of the list, I’ll be 18 and will have aged out.
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